19 10 06 ;

took baq results .
shant say how much i got .
im so FCUKING disappointed in MYSELF !
I WAS FCUKING SHOCK TO SEE MY RESULT !
i flunk my subjects ):
hais .
ireally dont wanto say abt all these anymore .
exams jus make me feel like puking !
if only i could turn baq time '
im still not able to accept the fact that i flunk THAT SUBJECT !
FCUK !

okays ;
whadtever ~
was crying ,
nobody seems to care ? -x
was even MORE UPSET .
went to toilet ,
saw constance & lirong .
lirong was inside the cubic .
constances was really GOOD (:
she comforted me (:
ILOVEHER (:
though i jus knw her this year ,
it seems like i knw her longer than any others do .
she held me in her embrace ,
i was really touched -
THANKS CONSTANCE (:
hmmm .
then gladys came ,
i was crying still ,
didnt entertained her .
i was rather bad .
in a FCUKING bad mood '
SORRY GLADYS !!
i actually tsk-ed her accidentally ,
sorry ,
i didnt mean it (:

then went baq to class ,
darl msg-ed me ,
sort of quarrelled with her ):
im sorry but im really disappointed '

shall not talk abt WHAT HAPPENED BETWEEN ME & DARL (:
was rather upset then ):

HMMM .
dear called me when im in class (:
chatted & blah ~
was rather touched by dear *
he came saying ,
'dont worry , everything will be fine -'
though it doesnt helped much , =x
i still appreciate him for that comforting words (:
his bbus came , he boarded
& he seemed tired (:
guess he wanted to slp ,
so we jus put down (:

then next was son !
LIM YANG ZHI is my BESTEST son i ever HAD (:
he comforted me too (:
he msg-ed me
& ask me not to worry
cos i was grumbling -x
wahahas
son , i APPRECIATE you (:
i hope i would get into same class as son too -
he's SWEET (:

hokays !
followed by esther sister (:
she msg-ed me too .
she's sucha caring jie ?!
ILOVEHER -
ever since we got into different sch ,
we seemed to talk lesser & lesser ):
luckilyy now we are baq to talking terms (:
i appreciate all her comforts (:
her comforts are the bestest among the best (:

then nth to do in class liaos ~
my baobei cousin called me (:
i was rather even touched !!
cann u imagine ?!
whn u are feeling SO DOWN ,
but all the ppl jus came pass by to drop u a call ?!
hahas .
iloveher (:
I HAVE PROMISED HER TO TON WITH HER !
haha .
im forced to .
hahas =x

slacked in class ,
listen to mr kuan crap .
ah kuan act cute -x

hmmm .
went to cp to makan ,
dhen headed home .
cousin called ,

skipped the FCUKING redcross
cos my brother met with an accident .
lol
believe it or not luhs !
fcuking vincent toh jun jie !
everytime only knw how to act big ?
ah beng ah ?
qi guar mai ?
try me luhs ~


went home .
still wasnt at a GOOD MOOD YET -
was thinking abt smth
dhen suddenly fell aslp =p
woke up
& its alrdy 5.30 ?!
shit !
im late !
i quickly get ready
& meet yunyu at cp
cos gotta go to bukit timah
for choir rehearsal for church dhis sunday (:
hmmm .
wasnt enthu at first ,
laoshi spoke to me ,
she said ,
'u are worshipping the LORD ,
not other things '
she wants me to concentrate .
lol -.-
dhen went so crazy & enthu
haha
all thanks to dhis malay guy dunno cal whad luhs~
forgotten his name
wahahas .
smth like sharu ?

hahas .
headed home & blah ~
dear left me with many miss calls ,
called baq ,
he dulan
cos i nvr ans ,
dhen explained .
hahas .
nth happened (:
& we had our SECRET CONVERSATION (:
hmmm .
took mrt home .
saw elizabeth ,
lol
haha !
the bf shorter than her sia .
hahas !
oops =x
whadtever .
she ask her to be so xialan to me ?!
i dont give a DAMN okays (:
home-d (:

THATS THE END OF TODAY LUHS ~



20 10 06

lol .
as usual .
took baq paper ,
crapped ,
though was rather sad .
asked mr kuan if could still take
chem & phy ; geo & ss ; add maths .
he was like ,
any classes cann take ,
dhen i was like ,
'phew ?!'
i hope i will get into 3c next yr please ?
hahas .
with faith ,
i feel i cann go 3c (:
hmmm .
played & stuffs .
had a great time with tiaraFOUR & son & ppl (:
miss derrick .
he didnt come for days .
hope he would come baq (:
sadd !
monday son & ppl getting canning ):
actually its today .
i jus pray hard that there wont be any canning
or the canning wont be pain (:

slacked & slept for the whole day in sch .
listened to mp3
& kena caught by mr kuan
but he didnt say anything (:
indeed he's really a GOOD TEACHER ! (:
HE 's a damn cute teacher oso ,
i scolded mr wong fcuk
dhen he say
'tsk ! dont like that scold '
his reaction was so bloody hell cute luhs !

after sch ,
went home immediately .
didnt go for redcross ,
tht fcukin vincent knw i have cousin's wedding to attend luhs ~
whadtever he wans luhs~
at least i informed him one week bfore hand ?!
lol !
& if i attend rc ,
its alrdy very gd ,
he shld like jus thank god !
i haven bame that the fcuking rc made me fail my subs okays !
cb .
redcross really sucks luhs ~
caused me to faill many subjects
cos of the FCUKING trainings held by the FCUKING vincent toh EVERYDAY !
ITS EVERYDAY OKAYS !
its not once in a week hokays !
its bloody everyday luhs !
i cursed REDCROSS in CVSS to C-O-L-L-A-P-S-E


darl & granny sent me home .
crapped -
was upset ,
cos darl & granny told me smth ):
nvm ,
nvr in my life i would expect that to happen again ):
hais .

i still felt darl & grace are so far away frm me ):
hais .
i jus wanna say ,
whadtever u listen ,
u wanto believe ,
i seriously have nth to say .
both hate me bfore ,
whad to do ?
we got baq tgt so closely
but now ?
getting further again ?
i cant stop.
put urself into my shoes ?
feel how i felt (:
understand me '

sunita darl was upset with me
cos she said i got closer to grace nowadays ,
well ,
but me & grace are still not as close ?!
i still felt she hates me ,
you knw ?
hais -

whadtever luhs ~

grace ,
everything is up to you to decide ,
i nvr wanto lose sucha gd fren like u ,
rmb ?
u were the ONLY ONE who comforted me with words -
i dont wanto see u drifting away frm me ,
but if u insisted ,
i have nothing to say .
its ur choice .
if u think im not gd enuff as a fren
or u dont wanna get too close with me ,
im fine with it .
yes ,
& now ,
our friendship are also put to a test ,
it depends on how we are going to get through it tgt .
i cant say much cos we are both frm different religion .
many times i told sunita ,
that you are my hope , my life & my all ,
i live to serve GOD
& i always wanted to bring to church ,
u came ,
but u didnt receive ,
i was sadd ,
i blamed myself quietly inside ,
i prayed that u would come dhis sunday ,
cos i thought i could touch u with my performance ,
i wouldnt have joined choir ,
seriously its partly for u
& partly u knw i love to sing .
i have nth much to say ,
though we are not very close ,
i still do appreciate our friendship & u .
i wanna get even closer to u !
yes ,
we used to have laughters along when we are out tgt ,
but whad happened now ?!
im speechless darling -
reply to me ~
hais ~

sunita ,
darl , we shared the most times tgt .
we shared weels & sorrows .
laughters & happiness .
if jealousy is gonna break us up ,
i think we are jus too fragil .
& it means we arent strong at all .
everytime when we are out ,
laughters & noises are everywhere ,
but now ?
it seems like we have no more laughters within .
i guess every friendships have to come to an end ,
but i really nvr wanna end mine & urs .
its really a gift frm god ,
& now our frienship is now put to a test ,
it depends if we could get through it tgt ?
perhaps through faith we cann ,
but i dont think u would believe ?
i appreciate u as much as i do .
but it seems like ,
we are no longer belong to the same mentality ,
we no longer have the same spiritual thinking ?
we no longer cann be as close like how we were in the past ?
we are no longer as bonded anymore ,
which makes me think,
we couldnt sit through this friendship test tgt ):
we nvr knw .
but i dont wanto lose you .
i dont whads ur thinking too ?
reply to me ~



anyways ,
yes ,
im sad !
life is really rather unfair ?!
i could jus lose someone precious
& gain a new friend
but i would give up on everything for grace & sunita ,
trust me (:

& i have to tell dear ,
thanks dear for being by my side ytd ,
when im sadd ,
u nvr failed to be there (:
i promised i'll ton with you ,
but give me time .
i have to ask my parents .
we will ton tgt with my babe cousins dey all yea (:
loves -

hey ppl !
i still gotta say ,
dhis time round ,
im gonna get HOD for ART again !
i dont care !
how could i get such GOOD MARKS for HOD ?!
wahahas !
i got HOD FOR ART for semester 3 (:
& now ,
EOY ,
its MINE again ! (:

wishh me okays !
teehee !
yes im greedy .
but thats my hope (: